What Do I Want?

Rachel — Fri, 16 Jan 2026 23:27:59 +0000

It’s harder to figure out than I realized. I’m doing this five-year journal called One Question A Day. So far, I’m enjoying it. The first question (Jan. 1) is, “What goal would you like to accomplish this year?” to which I replied, “I want to gain flexibility and strength in all aspects of who IContinue reading "What Do I Want?"

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Down, But Not Out

Rachel — Fri, 13 Jun 2025 19:11:47 +0000

This week I started working on my books again for the first time since Mom passed. Eight months ago. I probably shouldn’t have taken such a long break. Writing is therapeutic for me, after all. But the words wouldn’t come. And when they did, they weren’t worth sharing. I hate goodbyes. They wreck me. SoContinue reading "Down, But Not Out"

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Perfect Potatoes

Rachel — Mon, 24 Feb 2025 23:46:05 +0000

Tonight my community group (life group) will host a special guest. One of our pastors is coming to give a demonstration of the Passover meal. A few members of our group have seen him do this before. I am not one of the few. The buzz about it has been like the hype that sentContinue reading "Perfect Potatoes"

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How to destroy gluttony … along with yourself.

Rachel — Fri, 14 Feb 2025 18:28:07 +0000

Last night I experienced something amazing. Something worth sharing with the 95 people sitting there ready to listen to me. And then I picked up a microphone and killed it. But not in a mic drop way. In a mic wasting way. Who Am I? I posted several months ago about learning that I’d beenContinue reading "How to destroy gluttony … along with yourself."

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K bye, Vella

Rachel — Tue, 21 Jan 2025 20:15:18 +0000

I’ve known of Vella’s impending doom (officially closing in February) for a few months, but I held off on announcing it because it didn’t seem worth mentioning. Losses come in clumps for me. In 2020, I lost my foster daughter and my ministry within two months of each other. While most of my wailing duringContinue reading "K bye, Vella"

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The Pinkish Cup

Rachel — Fri, 17 Jan 2025 18:48:15 +0000

Am I crazy? You be the judge. I recently confided to my bestie that I might actually be bonkers. Maybe not diagnosable, but at the very least, missing some mental hardware. My Confession I’m sure we all have quirks we don’t talk about. Maybe everyone experiences moments of doubt about their sanity. We talk toContinue reading "The Pinkish Cup"

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Sabbatical

Rachel — Wed, 14 Aug 2024 15:56:03 +0000

Day One I’ve never taken a trip by myself before. While I was in re:generation, I stayed one night in a hotel to do my inventory. I made the mistake of booking close to home, and as soon as I was finished with my work, I went straight there. This time I found a cabinContinue reading "Sabbatical"

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EMDR

Rachel — Wed, 07 Aug 2024 14:08:02 +0000

In my first EMDR session, I learned that I don’t know what I’m talking about. Not that I didn’t know. That I still don’t. It’s not a terrible place to be, because I like to learn. Also, the less I know, the less I’m afraid I’m forcing things to happen. It felt a bit thatContinue reading "EMDR"

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Radical Rest

Rachel — Mon, 29 Jul 2024 14:41:58 +0000

Not a Napper Someone commented to me several weeks ago that they’d never seen me do anything halfway. I assured them there were things, and when they asked for an example, one word came out. “Rest.” I do that halfway, if at all. I’ve been working on myself, following themes that I believe come fromContinue reading "Radical Rest"

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Chaos

Rachel — Sat, 27 Jan 2024 16:26:55 +0000

I happened upon a little boy, sitting on the ground beside a hole filled with baby snakes. He was stirring it with a stick, watching them writhe. When he noticed me, he accidentally flicked the stick. Out popped one baby snake, which slithered away. Dozens remained inside, but his eyes followed the escaped one, andContinue reading "Chaos"

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